Some Current Random Thoughts...

That's right, this post is all about things which I thought of now. Hmmm...life's getting boring now, as the next test is about another week from now. I have to admit I'm very very afraid that I would fail my Maths. LOL. To be honest, I didn't even know what I was writing on those green, ominous papers. I swear I don't want to write answers on those kind of papers again. For one, I feel like I'm being left out when compared with my other friends. Some of them could even go to Singapore by themselves! God, when will it be my turn? I have my wings to spread too! Geez, not wanting to be a geek, but I wish Hiro Nakamura could lend some of his powers to me. Haha. Just to take a look at how will my future look like. I'm kinda sure, with the situation now, it's not going to be too good. Maybe I'll just end up as a teacher, who every day goes to school, and receives my pay when it's the end of the months. Well, if I'm even lucky enough, I'll be able to marry a normal girl and have a just nice family like my father did. Honestly, I think it's not such a bad idea. And I hope that normal girl is you and only you.

But, I don't want to be a teacher. It's like I am just to going just to get enough money to make ends meet. There's no satisfaction in that. Then again, in this dogs eat dogs world, money comes first before anything else. Who cares about satisfaction? You have money, you are the king! Well, I'll think about that later. Man, I'm still young, it's time for peace and love, no? Yeah, LOVE!

Around one week from now too, I'm off to a vacation! Yay! I've finally got to feel going on a trip with my friends. Yeah, these friends are really friends. All I hope is the weather will improve, at least to a level where our bus can travel. And we are coming back with an aeroplane! Yeah, I admit I've never been in a plane before, that's why I'm excited. How will the clouds look like eh? It's going to be a scene to remember. And I have so many things in mind to buy, I'm quite worried if my money won't be enough. And 14th December is coming soon too. Luckily, I've already prepared things and I hope you will like it!

That's all for now. Arigatos.

COLOURS Again!

YOSH! It's been such a long time since I last updated this blog. Well, it doesn't seem like anyone's reading it anyway. But for those who do read Colours, then my deepest gratitude to you. Cheers. It's just that I'm seating for my STPM right now, so I feel kind of guilty if I don't study. It's not like I really want to. I really hate to fail this STPM, because it's like the "final ticket" for me to get into a university. At least, I hope I can. Well, many people hope I can, and I appreciate all of them. I didn't get to feel like this back then during SPM, so that's why it's so different now. And my deepest apology if I couldn't reply all those sweet wishings. And my deepest gratitude to the very wishings I receive every morning from you. Those few words never fail to burn my spirit. ARIGTOS!

Am I stressed? If it's about my exam now, then I seriously think I am not. Not at all. I don't know why but I never really get stressed when taking exams. That kind of feeling only surfaces when I receive the results. I'm afraid that I'll disappoint you, disapoint Pa and Ma, disapoint Ma'am O, disappoint those who think highly of me. To tell the truth, I'm just a normal human being, and I'm sorry if I never achieve what all you expect.

I think more about my future. What's the use of being a multi-millionaire, but in the end dying all alone in a huge bangalow? What's the use of having a guaranteed job, but no one to share the bliss with? And this is why whenever people say I'm good, deep inside me, I want to give them this wisdom in exchange for their good social influence or their good looks. Yes, good look is important to me. Well, I used to it is not. You see, there was this friend who was so so so so pious and always said that inner beauty is more important than outer beauty. Then one day, this friend took pictures with all classmate except that very one. Why? You know why. In the outside, that left aside person lacked something, that being his look. Hell, that really broke my trust. Well, that's that. I can't be who I am not, but I always try to be a better person. And if that offends anyone with any aspects possible, please tell me.

There never friends who willing to ask me to tag along in a trip. And now, those who did ask me, thank you very much. I appreciate all of you. I really do. All of you means a lot to me. All of you never treat me like how I was treated. THANK YOU! THANK YOU in every possible ways!

For You

How I wish,
Your face to cherish,
With you, days to furnish.
If what you desire, a star of distant,
Shall I get it in an instant,
And let it be a symbol constant.
There is only distance,
But with patience,
Hopes still happily dance.
There are things, words fail to describe,
Hard it proves to be,
One day, it, shall I overcome.
All this, just for you,
Aye, for you.